Life Contains It All

    Inspired by a friend’s frustrated Texts.

                                                                                                                                                    

                              It’s very funny how the life changes and how we change along with the time.  Change is inevitable in everyone’s life. I guess most of us might have realized that, just like I did.

   This was the reply of a friend when I asked how everything was going on.  

                    “We work 5 days a week. No time to do anything else on those days. We wait all week for the weekend and the weekend passes away in a flash. And then we get back into the grind... waiting for the next weekend. Until 2 months pass and you look back and realize... damn! Where did the time go?! What did I accomplish?

                                        Nothing. There's no change. We may grow, get promoted... but nothing changes... still a monotonous grind of mind numbing nothingness. This life... it's a joke I tell you. Where is the time to LIVE!?

                              Until we grow old and retire... this is all we have. The only proof of our existence brings our names in the daily swipe in list. And then we die. Wow. Almost makes me wish I could join some terrorist cell.  Atleast an exciting life and an explosive conclusion…!”

            I was in shock for a moment. I saw my future in a flash. And realized whatever he said is damn true. Because there are days we used to enjoy more than we do now. There are days we used to enjoy going to movies by bunking classes. There are days we used to bunk the college just to watch cricket. There are days we used to drink one 200ml coke among 10 friends.

                                      It’s seems like nothing has changed, we still go to movies, but can’t skip office. Still cricket matches are going on, but can’t bunk the office. We still drink coke, can’t share with the ones like we used to do once.

   

                     I couldn’t get it out of my head for some days. So I started thinking about it and I realized that we are not the only ones, who lived happy life with friends, enjoyed a lot during college, there are people who enjoyed more, who had wonderful college life, like us, may be more than what we had. I wonder how those are now in their life. So I decided to ask some of my colleagues.

              Some say they still miss their college life, they were sad in beginning of their job because they got some responsibilities which they never had in their student life. Others say that they still enjoy like they did in college all the difference is with new friends and also it’s time for taking up some responsibilities.  

               What they said is true, we miss those days. But believe me there should be some memories to encourage us, inspire us and boost us. We all are lucky to have some of them in our college life or in our childhood.

        

       So, if you are feeling bored, get some new friends. If you are feeling lazy, start working out. If you want to support your family or still no job, start working hard. If you are feeling alone fall in love because it’s time for love not to have crushes ;)

                    

                                       Just don’t go to office for the sake of money. Don’t work for the sake of manager. Go with zeal to learn, enthusiastic to work. We still have lots of responsibilities coming ahead.

                            Life is full of responsibilities my friend and with responsibilities comes sacrifice, sorrow, happiness and love. These all are feelings nothing more, just like different ingredients in perfect recipe, to make it perfect we need all of them in equal quantity.

           

       Life will make you a perfect person what you have to be , because “LIFE CONTAINS IT ALL”, all feelings as experience , Nothing more, all that you need to do is “SAIL ALONG WITH IT”.  

                          

                    

                        

                        

The special people I've met in KLU

               “HAPPY DAYS “how many of you have seen this movie?!  

                    Well I guess almost all of us.

                     
                 I have first seen this movie when I was in my intermediate. After seeing that many of my friends wondered, Is that the life gonna be in engineering? well who knows...??

                                     After my completion of intermediate I was really less worried about the branch or the colleges in which I’m gonna join, instead I was really worried about the life and the people whom I gonna meet. From the schooling on wards I really payed more attention towards inspiration and encouragement rather than studies. There are a lot people from whom I’ve learned many things and there are a lot of different but great personalities I’ve met.

                        

COLLEGE:

                                           From the past semester itself I was waiting to write this but waiting for the right time, but the pity is I really don’t know when the right time is. As I’m now far from our college (not too far it’s just Hyd) I realized that the things are never gonna be same like before. I realized that I cannot fall asleep in the class, I realized that I cannot bunk the class and go play cricket, I cannot have the fun in college.  

                                         But I realized that if there is no end we would never know the greatness of anything. It applies to everything so as our college life.

                         I have two controversy feelings over my college life, they are happiness and sadness. I’m sad because its gonna end in few days. And I’m happy because it has given me all gonna I needed:

 Memories, Happiness, Friendship,   Inspiration, Encouragement, lot and lot more.

      But it’s better not to say that college gave me all these but it’s better to say my friends gave me all those.  Yes I found true friends here, a true inspirers, a real encouragement.

                                  In this blog I would really like to say something to the some special people in my life to whom I can’t say directly (well I can say directly but reading is better than hearing I guess) 

FRIENDS:

@Krishna Surisetty (Kirshh) :

                                      The first time I saw you when you used to drop Shiva at our rooms. At time you are completely stranger to me & I never imagined or thought that you will be one of my best friends in my life. Crazy isn’t it?

            Whenever I had any confusion or the problem, first person that I would call is you. Similarly you are there for me whenever I had problem.

                                After my parents you are the most valued person in my life.

               I always wanted to be like you, to study like you, to play cricket like you, of course to ride a bike like you & a lot. Unfortunately I couldn’t make it. That’s why you are so special to me and will always be.

@ Leela Krishna (LK):

                                       I’m lucky to have a friend like you, really I mean it. To me you are the real meaning of the proverb, “the friend in need is the friend indeed”. One thing I can clearly say that, there is nothing you don’t know about me. I mean to say that you are the only person who knows me completely rather than others and I’m sure about this.

                          I used to say everything to you about my problems, my crush, my family etc. I always valued & followed your ideas & suggestions because you are the person who can think better for me rather than me.

                                      Until inter I am a boy with terrible short temper and lost many friends due to it. But you are the reason why I controlled my short temper such that I cannot lose your friendship.

                    I can proudly say that you are the person who will there to guide and inspire me for my whole life when I needed it.

@ Rajesh Gajula (Rajee):

                                       You are the only person in the whole college who was with me in all semesters from the beginning. We both have same kind of mentality. I used to think that you never seemed to be caring for others, but I was totally wrong, you care for friends more than others do and it almost took me 2yrs to find out that. 

                                         These entire 7 semester journey I almost shared every laughter with you, you are almost part of my all happy memories. I won’t forget the classes we used to sing a new song daily.

@ Anil Kumar (Bondam):

                                    We never met until 3-1. And once met I always thought that why we haven’t met in 1^st year itself.

                           You are the first person to become a best friend in very short time in my life.  It’s like, you are the batch leader of our team and the most funniest of all of us.

                               Whenever I remember you I can put a smile on my face. You are the person who changed me a lot. The encouragement you provided is never forgettable.

                          One thing I can say for sure that you are my role model and cute little BONDAM

@ Rajesh Edara (EKV):

                                             We both studied together for 6 years. But unknowingly we haven’t met each other when we were in intermediate. But when we first met in first day of our engineering we talked like childhood friends. We used to sit in same bench. Those days are too gud.  

                                            We both haven’t stayed close long enough but we both know how much best friends we are. Don’t we? It’s always fun walking every day along with our friends after the end of college and talking about monkeys etc., I will never forget those days in my life.

@Harsha Vardhan Reddy(bekaar)  & S V S Prudhviraj  :

                                      Harsha & Phrudhvi the only one sentence I can say about you is my life is definitely incomplete without you people.

                     In my engineering life I only had a little interaction with girls although I have some things to say about them, not many, alittle.

                          And I also have to say sorry for not asking your permissions to write about you.

 @ Sri Meghana Devi :

                    I’m really proud that we both are classmates. You are the example for girls how to be courageous these days. There are many things that can be learned from you. I learned how to be confident from you. And I really wish you to attain great heights in your future and stay happy all the time.       

@ Poojitha Bhoodevi :

                In my view you are the perfect example of  how a girl has to be. In other words in future If have a daughter I want her to have the qualities like yours.

                                         I respect you more than any other girl in our college. I’m one among your well wishers. I wish, you always have all the happiness.

@ Divya Sree:

                        I have to say that you are the coolest person I have ever seen. Whenever I look at you I found all the peace I needed. I always loved to see you smiling. I always pray to god that never to take away that smile and peace from you.

                             And I have to agree that you’re really a silent killer [who kills with silence ;)] and too intelligent especially with boys (like me).

                                  I wish you succeed in every step you take. All the best.

@ Lakshmi Swetha :

                            One thing I totally say about you is that you always like to enjoy as a small child with your friends.                             

                                       It always appeared to me that we think in a same way. Because sometimes you stole some of the words from my mind.

                                 (Well I have free suggestion to you please don’t mind, borrow some courage from Meghana. ;). and You are definitely one the persons whom I always wanted to see happy.

Ramya & swathi:

                   You both are my first facebook friends I can t forget those days I used to chat with you. I’m always your well-wisher. You will definitely achieve your goals. All the best.  

Deepthi & Divya sai:

                    You both are always there as good friends to me especially deepthi thanks for your support and encouragement. I wish success comes in your ways.    

                           

It’s like yesterday I joined the college.  I did not had the life like which it was in the movie happy days but I had my own happy days and they are completely awesome. They give me lot of courage and happiness throughout my whole life.

                    “Thanks to all the people who made my engineering days as happy days”

plank 4 bed = friend for life                                                 

Time runs fast whenever we are in a happy moment. But the same time runs as slow as it can be when we are in sorrow. Everyone knows it. But the college life is something really different. It is the only recipe of life that contains all ingredients like tension, hard work, luck, love, friendship, fun, craziness etc. If we consider life apart from college any of the above ingredients will be definitely missing. 

            Most of my life until intermediate I used to think that, why would some other people love us just like our parents do or how can I love them just as I love my parents or myself. At that stage I was in total confusion, that doesn’t allowed me to make more friends in inter or in my schooling and that doesn’t mean I don’t have friends, I do have them but what I say is that I was not much clear or shortly I was not loyal in that friendship. But one thing is quite surprising to me that I still have my inter friends who cares for me.  You may now think that do we need to be loyal in friendship or what there to be loyal in friendship. I don’t have perfect explanation to that but my experience on friendship that made me to write this.

              Generally how 2 people can become friends?  Well there are so many situations, so many reasons for that. If I ask some people I can find their answers differently. Some may say we are friends from school itself, we are friends from inter or we are friends from engineering, etc.  Well, these are major places until now we became friends with some others. In the present world the easiest relation that everyone can easily form is friendship.

                                                    For example let us take the first day of joining the college we are quite unknown to our today’s best friends. I find that to be surprising. Doesn’t it? In the similar way we will have many more like this in future too. I am damn sure of that and was eagerly waiting for that. Whatever life gives us there will be strong reason behind it weather good or bad. I learned many things from my life, also from others life. The friendship that started with fight is ever lasting and I strongly believe that. That is main reason still my inter friend is still one of my best friends. At that time I don’t know all these as I was not that matured to think this all.  

Beginning days in Inter:

                                               Actually after joining in inter we are allotted new rooms after some 3 weeks of joining in the third floor of our campus. We were supposed to move to the new room in the break between 5 to 6, which is after 3-5 study hour. I was more excited about new room because when I checked it before it has four windows out of which 2 are at the both sides of the door and another two are back side of the room and there is a bed at window from which the greenery behind our college was clearly visible and I thought if I can get that bed I can have some cool and fresh air every morning and evening. Our college was very next to NH 5 which is from Chennai to Bhubaneswar via Nellore, Guntur, Vijayawada and Visakhapatnam. 

             Our college is situated at the outskirts of the village called Gudavalli. Our college is combined of both the school children and intermediates. It’s actually in ‘U’ shape and it is divided in such a way that it is divided in two half’s and one half for school children and the other for intermediates i.e. for us. And our college name is Raman Bhavan-1, 2. Which produced many IIT toppers and fortunately I was not one of them. Yes I mean it I am really happy not to be part of any IIT’s; I will tell you that later. And the school name is Goutham International School shortly GIS which is quite famous, well I think so.

           The clock struck 5 the co-ordinater said to take break and come back sharp at 6. I thought it would be late if go to old room and pack all my belongings and then moving it may become little late, so I decided to go straight to the new room with my plank and kept it on the bed such that I can get the window bed. When I reached the new room there are some ones belongings already in the room, some are too early than me but luckily they didn’t take the window bed. After placing the plank on the bed I went to old room and packed all my belongings and happily started moving. By that time many of roommates have gone to new room with their entire luggage. Slowly I entered the room and I observed that there are some ones belongings on my bed where I kept my plank. I found my plank missing their then I thought that the person have taken my plank and thrown away and kept his belongings. I was searching for the person who kept all those on my bed. Then I person with innocent looking, wearing high power glasses, in his night pants approached me by having a lot IIT-JEE books in his hand.

                                        Then the fight began, I started to shout at him he tried to explain me but I was in not controllable anger because I thought he had thrown away my plank and occupied my bed. He was trying to say that there is no plank in there. I strongly believed he had taken the plank and thrown away to occupied the bed.

                                             The quarrel was not yet completed but the clock struck 6 and soon PT’s were roaming in the corridors and ordered us to go for next study hours. I was not in the mood to leave but that’s not like engineering whenever we wish we can go to class or can bunk the classes by telling different organization names. PT’s roam with holding a long and strong stick beating on the doors with whistling the whistle which is of high frequency normal ear cannot bear.

                                                   All most spent the full study hour what to do with that stupid fellow who invaded my bed by making different plans what to talk, what to do like that. The study hour completed and I got ready to fight with him. But when I reached the room I found all my belongings were kept on the window side bed and he took another bed. I was surprised a bit but still thinking that he had thrown away my plank. That’s why my angriness is there still on him in my mind. Anyway I was happy to retain my bed and but felt bad to lose my plank.

                                            Our classes start at 6 in the morning and we are supposed to wake up at 5 in the morning. I was the only in the room who wakes up at 6, many others leave room for classes before my wake up.  I go straight to class without bathing and even brushing the teeth. Actually we have break at 7:30 to 8:00 for breakfast all others go breakfast I go for bathing and brushing and if still the time allows I go for breakfast which is done rarely. Almost spent my half of the inter i.e. 1^st year with the same time table. Well it went bad in 2^nd year that’s another matter.

                                     

                       The next day after the bed & plank incident at 7:30 I was getting ready with my brush for war on my teeth while others are getting ready to attack the mess with their palates. Ours rooms are locked at six and will open at only 12 noon. So I made all my arrangements like brush, towel near door such that I can put them back there. When I came back to my room to take brush I saw one boy with the GIS school uniform trying to push something inside the room from the gap between door and floor.  By approaching it I understood that it was my plank and he is trying to push to room. I reached him and asked,” What are you doing here and how did you get this plank?” He was in little bit fear and in a terrified voice he said,” sorry bhayya, yesterday we shifted from this room to new room and I thought my friend had forgotten his plank so I took this plank with me but when I gave it to him he said that’s not his. That’s why I was replacing it here”. After thinking for some time I understood that when I went to new room to place my plank I saw luggage and I thought it belongs to one of my roommates but it wasn’t, it belongs to school boys.

     

                             Now I totally understood what had really happened, after listening to the boy I understood how foolish I am. Without listening to my roommate I began to scold him I really felt bad for what had happened. And began to think how he can be that much cool even I was scolding for what he hasn’t done.  I want to say him sorry and was waiting for that. In the afternoon at the lunch break I was waiting for him to come to room and such that I can say sorry. He came to room 12:30 and there are no one in the room expect me, he came to room with his millions of tons of books and placed them on his bed and started to go for lunch. I saw him going to lunch and started running back and stopped him and said,” Hey I am really sorry yaar, I was uncontrollable yesterday and please don’t mind “. He just smiled and said, “It’s ok” and started to leave, I followed him and continued the conversation, “I am Chiranjeevi, Chiru shortly. What your name?”, “I am Adithya Sai Suresh, shortly Suresh” he said. Form that day there are only a few days where I have gone to mess without him in whole my intermediate. I have learned many things from him in my 2 yrs of intermediate life. That helped me here in engineering to make good ones as my best friends.

                                    

                                                    Well that’s my inter best friend and me, I had very few best friends in inter but that’s not same here in engineering, I have to say that I have the “best” friends here. Well one thing is pretty clear that friends are the people who will live with us. Where ever we go we will find friends, matter is that new ones at new place that’s it. There are many good people around us but the thing is we also need to be good to them. Be there for the good friends and be the good friend. Well as I said in the beginning the time in happiness runs faster. We have almost completed our engineering and I even remember the day of my joining, it was just like yesterday I joined here. But we completed 3 yrs here and only one more left, enjoy much as you can and never ever forget your friends. And if you are having some problems with your friends adjust with them and help him to change but don’t leave him just as unknowns do. Be there for the good friends and be the good friend

                                             

                                     Here in engineering also I have someone like my friend in inter from whom I learned many things mostly simplicity, and coolness..….  And he well known to all of us, he is ……..

       Well he don’t like publicity, have to take his permission for that. I will inform you after doing that. Bye for now…….

                              Dedicated to one who is trying to be good friend to a good friend… 

EVERGREEN 5 MIN IN MY LIFE

“So we have successfully derived the final equation for total power for half wave monopole and it is 73.11 Irm^2 .so in the next class we will discuss about radiation field’s”, by saying this she ended the class.

                   “Next class”, is the only word that hit my mind, which means the class is completed. Uf… a great relief after 2 hr non-stop class by our AWP mam. I don’t know about other people but it’s very difficult for me to really pay attention to that class especially on that day.

                                            Yes that day is very important one because one week ago Madhu said “hey!    Plz …don’t  mind, I am having exams I can’t talk right now I will talk to you after exams ..k na…” . Madhu, she is as beautiful her name. She is my school mate. After long wait I got in touch with her. So I was eagerly waiting for this day, at last the day has arrived & I was so excited. I ran back to my room not even waiting for my friends. I reached room as fast as possible. My hands just reached my cell even without taking off shoes or bag.

But all my excitement gone in flash, because there is no response from her.

                                          “Shit …… these girls never do what they say”….I was so angry. After checking out my missed calls, my inbox showed me 4 unread messages. There is only one person in the world that messages daily, it is none other than customer care. But this day I have a message from an unknown number “hey …!  How are you?”

                                   I am 200% sure that this must be her; I have to say sorry to all the girls about above line. And without any doubt and hesitation I started giving her reply

Me: ya I am fine. How do you wrote your exams

Her:  hey how do you know it’s me…..

Well I cannot say that I have been waiting for her reply since a week

Me: yaa.. It’s a wild guess…J

Her: hoo...k ………wrote well exams, so when will your college ends

Me: it’s up to 5…..so what are you doing?

Her: I am in train …coming to home for pongal holidays.

 Wow she is coming... My mind began to think “is there any way to meet her” I don’t know where is she staying now but one thing is clear she has to come to Vijayawada railway station because it’s a junction

Me: hoo... That’s cool..! So by which train are you coming?

Her: sheshadri express

Me: hoo…so at what is the nearby station you crossed?

Her: we just crossed samrlakota

Me: it’s already 7:30pm, you will reach Vijayawada by?

Her: hmm if train maintains its speed as it is now then may be by 9:30 or 10:00 I may reach vij.

Me: what? …. Are there any friends with you?

Her: we are around 10 in the train.

Me: after reaching Vijayawada where you have to go?

Her: Tenali. We are staying in Tenali now, dad got transferred to Tenali.

Me: ho... Anyone coming to Vijayawada to receive you?, Or there are any friends from Tenali with you?

Her: no one is there and no one will come I have to go by my own... :(

  that sad smiley made me more sad, she is alone at that time in the night ,for me it’s just half an hour to railway station so I decided to go for her more likely for me…;)

Me: hey everything ok.. If not I can come, I am just a few km’s away from the station.

Her: no no don’t want, I can manage.

Me: are you sure?

Her: ya...Why do you take strain?

 What!! she thinks that is strain to me……..?? If she wants me to wait for whole life in railway station I am ready for that. I was in great confusion to decide to go or don’t. That’s why I made a call to my one of the best friends he always helps me in any confused state. He said me many things but the only thing I remembered is “do what your soul says to you”. I just closed my eyes thought I have 2 cases here first one if I go there I can meet her and can talk to her. Well suppose if don’t go there I may never get chance to meet her. That’s it, I have decided to go.

                                                Its 7:30 so I got up and refreshed well. Almost did everything I can do in dressing to impress her. And started. Got into the bus and checked the time it’s just passed 8:00, now I replied her

Me: hey I am sorry; I am coming to railway station...

Within seconds I received call from her, its after 2 weeks nearly we are talking. Almost all the time we communicate through messages. I can’t explain in words how happy I am to see her name in my cell.

“HELLO “!  …….I said by picking up the call.

“ARE YOU MAD?” was the first question I heard from her. I want to say her that I am crazy about her but I don’t have that guts.

“HEY YOU CAN SCOLD ME AFTERWARDS  ...PLEASE TELL ME YOUR COMPARTMENT NUMBER”, I said. She just laughed and said “IT’S S-2”.

“THANK YOU, I WILL MEET YOU THERE BYE”, I said and ended the call. Now I understood why people become crazy in love.

I was totally involved in the thoughts of our meeting. Suddenly the husky female voice disturbed my thoughts “TICKET PLEASE”, that was the female bus conductor voice. “ONE TO RAILWAY STATION PLEASE”, I said. “THIS BUS DOESN’T GO TO RAILWAY STATION”, she said.”WHAT? ” was the only word delivered from my mouth. I think she understood my dilemma and said ,”I WILL GIVE TICKET TO BUS STATION YOU CAN GO FROM THERE ”.She left giving me the ticket. I still don’t understand how I stepped in to the bus without seeing the name plate. That shows how much I was thinking about our first meeting.  

                       And I forgot! There is another problem here I am a very new to the city Vijayawada .Within 20 minutes I was standing all alone in front of the great Pandit Nehru bus station , Asia’s 2^nd largest bus station next to Chennai. Up to some time I stood there watching it. Suddenly my watch indicated me the time by making beep sound, it’s exactly 9. Now my heart started to beat slightly, so I again made call to my friend. He clarified me the way but he also told me to ask some people around there for more clarity. One old man told me to go to the next side of bus station and from there you can get into the railway station by 15 min. I thanked him started running through bus station. So within 9:20 I was standing in front of railway station. What not we have to do for meeting someone special, so special.

                                           The moment I entered the station I received msg. from her “we will reach vij. In 10 min.” By seeing that message I can hear my heart beat aloud. Every person who has to enter into platforms has to take platform ticket. The Q for the tickets is so long at that time.  Her next train is within 10 min. I have to talk to her at least in that 10 min. If I stand in the Q then it’s not possible to come out in 10 min.  Whatever happens I have decided not take any risk of missing her. So I directly entered into platform without taking platform ticket. At last the train has arrived on platform number 4.

                                         I was standing right at which S-2 is expected to come. The sound of train made my heart beat raise to maximum extent. I can hear my heart beat even in that busy and noise platform. Within seconds S-2 was in front of me I saw many people getting down with their heavy luggage. But my eyes were only searching for her. Last time I saw her nearly in my 8^th std. almost 7 yrs. But I still remember her face very clearly. Not remember I have to say I didn’t forget her in these 7 yrs. She got down with her 2 bags and stood in front of me, searching for some one, I knew it was me but I stood silent. Even after 7 yrs she is same as she was in 9^th STD.

                                                                    After few looks she looked at me, and said, “you are chiranjeevi right?” Thank god, at last she recognized me. “Yes “, I said. As there was more rush of passengers on that platform we decided to go to her next train platform. I helped her with the luggage. Her next train was already in the platform and will start in next 5 min. so what I have is 5 min. to talk with her. I can’t propose her in 5 min. but I just want her to remember these 5 min in her whole life as I do.

                                                               After adjusting the luggage into the train we sat on the bench. She started talking by scolding me “are you mad or what, what is necessity for you to come”. I just gave her smile and diverted the topic ‘’so how do you wrote your exams’’. “Wrote well”, she said. “You have changed a lot I can’t recognize you in the first sight.” She continued. “But you are as same as you were in 9^th std.”, I said. She smiled slightly, that touched my heart. “So where is your house in Tenali “, I asked. “It’s near, adjacent to railway station”, she said.  I then recollected that her father is an railway employee. “ho your father is railway employee …right?” I said.” Yes, how do you remember so many things about me?”, she asked. There is no answer but just smile. “So who will come to railway station to receive you”, I asked. ”mom will come”, she said. ”hoo, hey u know is it that much necessary to take plat form ticket?”,I asked her just to say her that I haven’t have platform ticket. She burst out into laugh. After that she asked “you are studying engg. And you didn’t know it’s necessary to take platform ticket”. She gave me her vizag to Vijayawada ticket and said to show that ticket if any TC asks. She asked some more questions about her friends. We haven’t finished our talk the train started. She got into the train.

                                                            The train started to move fast she looked at me and waved her hand, I too waved back. Within seconds the train disappeared from the plat form. I came back to bench and sat down there thinking about the wonderful 5 min in my life. After some time I received a message from her “hey thanks for coming, go safely.”

That message filled my heart with more love for her. Of course I knew “anything for her”. This is the best ever conversation in my life which was for 5 min in Vijayawada railway station which I never forgets in my whole life.

my first writings ..

                                                 Missing pages of a “dairy”

“It’s already 12 am in the morning “, said one of my friend’s. “Oh..Then your b’day is over “, the other said. We are all waiting for auto to go to hostel after my friend’s b’day bash.
We were in our respective rooms by 12:30 am in the morning. We are just two for the room. The room was totally dark, and I noticed that my fellow mate was in deep sleep. I thought of not to disturb him by switching on the lights. So I was searching for my bed in that darkness by taking little steps. After taking a few steps I reached my bed. I noticed there are many crushed pages on my bed and a book after that I thought that should be some text book but touching it I understood that was my roommate’s dairy. I noticed him writing dairy from the first day of this year.
I always used to keep the torch below the pillow I took it out and opened the dairy I found that some of the pages are missing and I found them in the dustbin.
I took the pages and arranged them in order and I started reading:
(Note: From here the person “I” refers to the person who is writing the dairy not the author & comments in “/* */” indicates his inner feelings)
Day: 16th Jan
The unforgettable day in my life:
I ended my childhood love (I am not sure its love …………..but something related to that)
I expressed it to her (hm…not in a pleasant manner although)
As it happens around the world when a boy expresses his feelings on any girl,
The first word girl says is "no... No...”
She also said,” no”...
Well, presently I don’t know what to say to her or to myself
But
I want that to remember for my whole life
So I am writing down my conversation here
Me: hi
Her: haaai ……………………………………………………. /* exactly 3 a’s between h and i*/
Me: am I disturbing you? ………………………………. /*she did not responded yesterday that’s why*/
Her: no…y asking like tht,,?
Me: hmm nthg ,if I were u I would definitely think that ,y this fellow is always disturbing me … 
Her: oh..really..then from now I will also think in the same way ….k na..?
Me: sure…. But it’s better to tell me before thinking like that…
Her: ho …come on ,nthg like that..
Me: hmm…….hey, I have mailed you some get together photos, vinay also came, you were asking about him that night …………..
/* I met her in railway station when she is coming from vizag for her holidays*/
Her: haha.. what is he doing……..?
/*I thought she was laughing but that’s like“ha … ha .. yes .tell me”*/
Me: he just doing some multimedia course .. I don’t know much about him if you want I can tell you later..
Her: not necessary ....just casually..
Me: k..
Her: what else..wht dng?
Me: nothing just killing some time… and you?
Her: playing with tv remote…
Me: haha.. :D….. y?.......................
/*here” haha” indicates laughing*/
Her: boring…..
Me: ho.. then stop playing with remote and come out and enjoy the some fresh air ,like me…
Her: mom will scold me if I roam with cell phone
Me: hmmm…… then I will not mesg u or call u. ok na….!
Her: hey nt like that…I am having exams so …when is ur clg?
/*she creates the topic and herself changes it whenever she wants, but I want to continue that so... */
Me: hoo.. but I want to tell you one thing whenever you are busy please tell me I can understand .. I will not disturb you.. ok naa..
Her: oh..god !!you are so sensitive ,we are all friends ,your sis is my best friend .you know, our exams are so tough so I don’t use cell during exams..
/*my sister and she are class mates when we were at schooling, I know my sis she are close but now she included me that sounds differently*/
Me: I am not sensitive .. I am just making it clear ..
Her: hey tel me wtz ur prblm..?
/* my mind told me that time has arrived to the close another story in my life,so whatever happens I decided to her that ….*/
Me: nthg ..i just like you..
Her: %)..haa??
/* ” %)” that is smiley which shows or tells that her face must be little angry or more, may be happy who knows..*/
Me: I just said that I like you
/* I said it strongly really strong*/
Her: oh…
/* I know she doesn’t know what to say but she managed with “oh..” I think she must be expecting me to tell her “ I love her”*/
Me: you know you are my inspiration from my child hood , I really want to be like you , want to smile like you, want to enjoy like you ..ala …..ala……I began to like you .
Her: Oh gr8..you take me as inspiration..!.very funny...but just liking is gud..nt more than that..i js wnt to infrm u ,, I know you are thinking more than that ..but still...
/*she didn’t mentioned the word love she guessed correctly although and the last words mean “no “ to the proposal */
Me: what ..you know that? hoo that’s ok …any way I was about to tell you that…..well let me guess the reason for your no..hmm you don’t like me …correct ..?
Her: Cha..not like that..hmm...you are younger than me..not my profesn ...nt a christian..there are many factors..l8 le..any way the sweetness of friendship is different..isn’t it?
/* well let me guess these are problems we are going to face when are going to get married ,,, I didn’t even clearly proposed her ,she thinks about the marriage and problems at marriage .. why these girls are so particular about marriage even before they love.. I know these we have to face and I am sure I can face them If she agrees but she really afraid of these problems may be because she wants to marry the person she loves ….but I never tought of marrying her I just thought of loving her just loving her */
Me: I can convince you but I don’t because it will be selfish If I do so…………so what do you want me to do?
Her: Ur wish..b frnds frever..not in any othr way..if you don’t like that stop here itself....1st make urself clear....
Me: I am pretty much clear in my life…..so before the end I want to ask a ques.” when you know that I like you”
/* I just want to know wheather she know it when we both were at school but……..*/
Her: I have seen may like you..by seeing your intrest itself I understood ….any way i wish u a very bright future..:)
/* it really hurts when someone you like more than yourself treats you as other common person they met in their life*/
/* common person is who we just never think about him and whenever we see him we thinks he is not good person*/
/* I was really sad I don’t want to talk to any more but I just want to know why she said no*/
Me: I haven’t done nothing wrong ..right?
Her: Yaa…………wht wrng?
Me: “friends for ever or stop it here” haa…? …. May I know the reason ……?
Her: i dnt like all these thngs…that’s it..
/* these are the most repeated words from max. Of girls I know...every girl says these words whenever she got a proposal,well “ I don’t like all the things “ refer to they don’t like love .etc…*/
Me: hmm……. I will not be that much sad if you say“ I don’t like you” , “ I hate you” or “ I am in other relation “……any way you are the most unforgettable person in my life .. GOODBYE
/* I really mean what I wrote, I can’t forgot her for life because she is the person who thought me to live life happily ,in the way of impressing her I had changed a lot in character I began to like me only because I can see her in my smile*/
Her: Hmm..thanx fr ur concrn..k byee..
/* I really don’t know the meaning of the word concern I opend laptop and searched for that word after knowing the meaning of that word I really felt happy ….actually concern means caring feelings any way she know that I really cared for her*/
Me: I said GOOD BYE..Which means I will not make call or message you until you do…….
/* I decided that not to call her any more anyway I can do that because I didn’t expect to continue my relation with her … I broke myself the relation*/
Her: k…
/* I didn’t think even second , what to type but the words come directly from heart and my hand typed…*/
Me: I will definitely miss you…:(
/* any i didn’t got any reply as I was expecting…………. But I was really happy because I expressed everything I think about her so no more thinking to impress her because I want her to make decision whether she want to extend this relation further or not.. it’s been so many days I didn’t send any message nor I received one ,although I deleted number from my phone .. But I can remember If I see that…*/
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“Miss you... :(” is the last word he had written .For the first time I am proud on his thinking and his approach, and the girl he liked too. Because If each and every one understand the real meaning of love, and difference between love & liking then we don’t see any harassment on basis of love or any acid attacks on girls..So this is up to you guys “love is the gift of god don’t make it terrible “. And girls if a boy is roaming around you make them everything clear that about your opinion .but never play with them………… I know I have spoken a lot but try to think on it…………….thanks……
Life is really so beautiful, Live it and let others to live……………..good bye
Oh..Yes I forgot to say I will definitely write a book if my friend will succeed in his cute little love… ;)